Dear God, where art Thou, I need you now and I am so ashamed. Lord Jesus, how could this happen and why did I allow myself to be weak.How can I tell my wife that I cheated on her with a woman I did not realize I did not even care for. Lord, how do I explain that this was something I thought I wanted to do, because it was the height of the daily topic on my job.
Now she has found out, and is packing up to leave our home and taking the kids along with her. Dear God, if she can only know the shame that I feel within my heart and how this one night stand has caused me to realize that I truly love my wife and children.
Now that I have allowed myself to sink so low, I fully understand that it was really an unconscious lustful act on my behalf to destroy all I have taken the time to build and put together in my life. Lord Jesus, why does it take committing an unthinkable act, to come to know that this is really not how I want my life to be. Yes, I may have initiated myself into the daily sexual conversation on the job, by becoming one of the boys.
What good did it do me, to have my family leave me for a few minutes of lustful pleasure, I cannot even say I enjoyed, for my heart was not there. Forgive me Lord Jesus, for responding to a lusting call and allowing myself to obey. How do I explain to my wife that I regret what I did, and that this escapade has really woken me up to what a real man is supposed to be for his family.
Now that I am broken in my heart, I have learned a valuable lesson on how easy it is, and why many of us men have lost all that we stood for, on account of trading what is real for what is only a camouflage of how we think our life is suppose to be. Heavenly Father, if only my wife will ever know that this experience has caused me to grow up and fear ever coming so close to losing everything and everyone in my life.
How do I make her realize that she truly has my heart and that there is nothing more precious than a man's family and his bleeding heart. Thank you Lord, for giving me back my life, never to be thrown away again.
Now she has found out, and is packing up to leave our home and taking the kids along with her. Dear God, if she can only know the shame that I feel within my heart and how this one night stand has caused me to realize that I truly love my wife and children.
Now that I have allowed myself to sink so low, I fully understand that it was really an unconscious lustful act on my behalf to destroy all I have taken the time to build and put together in my life. Lord Jesus, why does it take committing an unthinkable act, to come to know that this is really not how I want my life to be. Yes, I may have initiated myself into the daily sexual conversation on the job, by becoming one of the boys.
What good did it do me, to have my family leave me for a few minutes of lustful pleasure, I cannot even say I enjoyed, for my heart was not there. Forgive me Lord Jesus, for responding to a lusting call and allowing myself to obey. How do I explain to my wife that I regret what I did, and that this escapade has really woken me up to what a real man is supposed to be for his family.
Now that I am broken in my heart, I have learned a valuable lesson on how easy it is, and why many of us men have lost all that we stood for, on account of trading what is real for what is only a camouflage of how we think our life is suppose to be. Heavenly Father, if only my wife will ever know that this experience has caused me to grow up and fear ever coming so close to losing everything and everyone in my life.
How do I make her realize that she truly has my heart and that there is nothing more precious than a man's family and his bleeding heart. Thank you Lord, for giving me back my life, never to be thrown away again.
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